Well tomm is the big day. Im nervous and kinda terrified at the same time. I mean this is just going to be the biggest step I have ever taken. My life will change after tomm. I wont be the same. I mean mentally I will be but physically i wont. I wont be able to drink ever again. I wont be able to enkoy soem foods that I love now. But in the end Im hoping it will all be worth it. Thanks to all my friends and lovers (hahahahahaha) for your support. It means alot. I know this is a small update but Im tired from lack of food. So hopefully ill update tomm or the day after.
Until next time..
Love Sully.....
Monday, March 25, 2013
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Day 1 of Post Op Diet
Well this is my first day of pre op diet and I have found it not bad. Seeing that I did sleep half the day, I have survived. I found out that I can eat soup and broth that doesnt have chucks of stuff in it so i got some tomato soup and some beef and chicken broth. i also found out that I can eat sugar free stuff like pudding, jello, and popsicles. So I got a bunch of those. For protein, I ordered some Nectar Syntax Double stuffed Cookie stuff from Amazon. On a suggestion from a friend I went to Drug Emporium to find somethign else but they didnt have anything. I ended up getting some Muscle Milk cake batter and cookies and crem flavored. The cake batter is not that bad. So im straight for a couple days. Ill update tomm.
Sunday, March 17, 2013
March 26, 2013
That date will become one of the most important dates in my entire life. That is when I have my weight loss surgery. I elected to have the Vertical Sleeve surgery. For those that are skinny and dont know fat people shit...let me explain what vertical sleeve is. Vertical sleeve is basically the doctor pulling out 3/4 of your stomach. This is less abrasive that gastric..which you have to reroute stuff. It also has less problems that gastric. You think I would be excited huh...hell no..Im freaking terrified. Its not the surgery Im terrified of. Its that I have failed so many times before trying to make myself better that I have resorted to this. What if I fail at this? There is nothing else left. Thats what Im afraid of. I guess if I fail at this..God wanted me to be fat and Ill have to accept it. I also feel like I let some people down by going the easy route. Well It took 30 years to get this shape....i dont have 30 years to take it off.
I find my self thinking of all that I didnt do or wasnt able to do cause of my weight. There is a lot of things that I have missed out on. When I have a child, I swear right now, I will not let them miss out on any opportunity because of limitations. I had a great childhood, but there is so much more that I could have done. I bet I missed out on a bunch of jobs due to being overweight. I know for a fact that I have missed out on having someone special cause of being overweight. Im excited about the all the possibilities that will arise once I get the majority of this weight off. I might be able to start buying t-shirts that I want and not t-shirts that im limited to. Skinny people have no idea who much it sucks to not be able to buy ANY t-shirt you want. I know it sounds petty, but dammit Ive done this all my life. I really envy skinny people that buy clothes from anywhere. I dress nice, but I could dress so much better. Just the simple things that will change are going to be so much better. Fitting in small cars, being able to ride in a plane semi comfortably (i seen even skinny people have some issues...whats the deal with plane seats...they are made for 10 year old kids), being able to work on my car, being able to walk as far as I want with out my knees or back hurting, the list goes on and on.
I took a month off from work and everybody there has been supportive and I thank you. The first week before the surgery is the dreaded liquid diet. This is why I took the first week off from work. i would be able to but seriously could you imagine me talking to someone on day 3 with nothing to eat and my team lead brings in Wendys? I would probably lose my job. So Im gonna hole my self up in my house by myself. I have 23 Bond movies to watch and I have the Internet. Ill be good. I think I might do a daily blog post about how I felt that day. It should make some interesting reading. Then after the surgery, Ill be camping out at my parents house for a couple days. Then its home sweet home. My roommates moved out for a month to let me recover from this with no distractions. I now will have free access to a gym and I think ill go every day until I start work again. My goal is to lose 40-50 pound s by the time I go back to work. Might be an unreachable goal...but we will see. Thats pretty much it about the surgery.
Now on to issues that piss me off. I think I might start blogging these on the frequent cause I feel like Im all pent up with rage over so much stupidity in this world.
Let me start out on these stupid ass conspiritards. These are people that think everything is a conspiracy. I think they have too much time on their hands. Anyway, what got me hating these idiots is all of the conspiracies surrounding Sandy Hook. Now this is a tragedy and they should just let it go and stop trying to blame someone and let them people rest in peace. Im sure the victims families would like these morons to shut the hell up about it. So heres the deal, there are actually people out there that believe that Obama and company are responsible for the massacre that occurred. Let me repeat this....OBAMA IS RESPONSIBLE FOR SANDY HOOK. So from what I see, Obama arranged this to bring light to the gun control laws that he is wanting passed. So let me get this straight. Our president ordered that innocent children and teachers be killed in Sandy Hook so that he can pass some gun control laws. Do you people really believe this? If so, please do us all a favor and NEVER vote in an election again. Please. You are the root of whats wrong in America today. Yes Obama has done some things that make me think he is mildly retarded, but if you think Mitt would have done any better you are fooling yourself. people keep talking about balancing the budget...hell half of you cant balance a fucking checkbook. So with that said, please stop sending me anti Obama pictures. It makes you look more and more like someone that wears a tin hat.
Another thing that pisses me off to no extent are people that abuse the welfare system. Now I know there are some people that need it, but there are some that are using their vagina as a baby factory just to get more of my fucking tax money. There was even a quote from someone on welfare that stated she makes something equal to 80,000 a year in money and help. WTF I work my ass off for everything I have. I thing these dumb asses should to. For instance, if you are on welfare and have no job, i think you should go to a taxpayers house and mow their lawn. Seriously..get up...get out...get something. I think they should limit the amount of money someone gets for kids. If you have over 3 kids and living on welfare...tough shit...that 4th child? Better man up. I think we should limit it to 3 kids per household. After three..get your shit fixed cause we dont need your kids growing up expecting the tax payers to keep handing them shit without doing stuff for it. If you grow up in poverty, more than likely the cycle will continue with your children unless you get off your lazy ass and try to better yourself. Hell the least you could do is clean my house.
Thats it for now. Ill start blogging my day to day struggle with liquid diet. A good laugh will be had by all.
Until then....
Love Always
Sully
I find my self thinking of all that I didnt do or wasnt able to do cause of my weight. There is a lot of things that I have missed out on. When I have a child, I swear right now, I will not let them miss out on any opportunity because of limitations. I had a great childhood, but there is so much more that I could have done. I bet I missed out on a bunch of jobs due to being overweight. I know for a fact that I have missed out on having someone special cause of being overweight. Im excited about the all the possibilities that will arise once I get the majority of this weight off. I might be able to start buying t-shirts that I want and not t-shirts that im limited to. Skinny people have no idea who much it sucks to not be able to buy ANY t-shirt you want. I know it sounds petty, but dammit Ive done this all my life. I really envy skinny people that buy clothes from anywhere. I dress nice, but I could dress so much better. Just the simple things that will change are going to be so much better. Fitting in small cars, being able to ride in a plane semi comfortably (i seen even skinny people have some issues...whats the deal with plane seats...they are made for 10 year old kids), being able to work on my car, being able to walk as far as I want with out my knees or back hurting, the list goes on and on.
I took a month off from work and everybody there has been supportive and I thank you. The first week before the surgery is the dreaded liquid diet. This is why I took the first week off from work. i would be able to but seriously could you imagine me talking to someone on day 3 with nothing to eat and my team lead brings in Wendys? I would probably lose my job. So Im gonna hole my self up in my house by myself. I have 23 Bond movies to watch and I have the Internet. Ill be good. I think I might do a daily blog post about how I felt that day. It should make some interesting reading. Then after the surgery, Ill be camping out at my parents house for a couple days. Then its home sweet home. My roommates moved out for a month to let me recover from this with no distractions. I now will have free access to a gym and I think ill go every day until I start work again. My goal is to lose 40-50 pound s by the time I go back to work. Might be an unreachable goal...but we will see. Thats pretty much it about the surgery.
Now on to issues that piss me off. I think I might start blogging these on the frequent cause I feel like Im all pent up with rage over so much stupidity in this world.
Let me start out on these stupid ass conspiritards. These are people that think everything is a conspiracy. I think they have too much time on their hands. Anyway, what got me hating these idiots is all of the conspiracies surrounding Sandy Hook. Now this is a tragedy and they should just let it go and stop trying to blame someone and let them people rest in peace. Im sure the victims families would like these morons to shut the hell up about it. So heres the deal, there are actually people out there that believe that Obama and company are responsible for the massacre that occurred. Let me repeat this....OBAMA IS RESPONSIBLE FOR SANDY HOOK. So from what I see, Obama arranged this to bring light to the gun control laws that he is wanting passed. So let me get this straight. Our president ordered that innocent children and teachers be killed in Sandy Hook so that he can pass some gun control laws. Do you people really believe this? If so, please do us all a favor and NEVER vote in an election again. Please. You are the root of whats wrong in America today. Yes Obama has done some things that make me think he is mildly retarded, but if you think Mitt would have done any better you are fooling yourself. people keep talking about balancing the budget...hell half of you cant balance a fucking checkbook. So with that said, please stop sending me anti Obama pictures. It makes you look more and more like someone that wears a tin hat.
Another thing that pisses me off to no extent are people that abuse the welfare system. Now I know there are some people that need it, but there are some that are using their vagina as a baby factory just to get more of my fucking tax money. There was even a quote from someone on welfare that stated she makes something equal to 80,000 a year in money and help. WTF I work my ass off for everything I have. I thing these dumb asses should to. For instance, if you are on welfare and have no job, i think you should go to a taxpayers house and mow their lawn. Seriously..get up...get out...get something. I think they should limit the amount of money someone gets for kids. If you have over 3 kids and living on welfare...tough shit...that 4th child? Better man up. I think we should limit it to 3 kids per household. After three..get your shit fixed cause we dont need your kids growing up expecting the tax payers to keep handing them shit without doing stuff for it. If you grow up in poverty, more than likely the cycle will continue with your children unless you get off your lazy ass and try to better yourself. Hell the least you could do is clean my house.
Thats it for now. Ill start blogging my day to day struggle with liquid diet. A good laugh will be had by all.
Until then....
Love Always
Sully
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